Life is full of Possibilities

Death..! Death is so final, whereas Life..!, Life is full of endless possibilities.

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She unlocked the main door with heavy heart, with small and tedious steps came inside and switched on the lights, with a sigh she took of her coat and hanged it near the door and kept keys on table. Slowly and unenthusiastically she made her way to kitchen and poured herself a glass of chilled water. With every drop she could feel her inner self crumbling, her senses were getting numb, she just wanted all the feelings to go away, to give her a moment of peace. Unconsciously tears started to make way down her cheeks. She was feeling vulnerable and helpless. She had lost her job 5 months ago, with no fault of hers, all she knew was, one moment she was working and next moment she got fired, without any reason, without any notice. All her cards had maxed out with no money left and with 1st coming she had to send money home after all she was the soul bread earner of family of 3 younger siblings and paralysed father.

She didn’t want to live. She never wanted to be a disappointment for her family. On an impulse she took a knife and started cutting her veins. Grief took over as she had no choice, she couldn’t see her family in pain. Lying there covered in blood she kept remembering her family and all happy memories she had with them. All of the sudden she realised she cannot die, she had a family to take care of, she didn’t want to let them down, she didn’t want to tell them she was a coward, who couldn’t handle bit of stress in her life. She acquired control of her lifeless body and took situation under control. She bandaged her hand and cleaned up all the mess. She will not give up, she told herself, she is strong and nothing can break her down so easily. With the new build confidence she went to bed. Tomorrow will be a good day, no matter what she will never give up, this is her life and no one has the right to mess with it not even her.

Suicide lies. It tells you that the way you feel now is the way you will feel forever. Hope itself can seem like a toxic lie, a set-up for disappointment. The present feels permanent, and the future feels foretold. Don’t fall for the lies. The future is unwritten. Things can change. Things do change. Sure, there is no guarantee that things will get better. There also is no guarantee that things will get worse. You may feel unable to look beyond the present. Or you may feel certain that what lies ahead is more of the same. Even if the pain remains, your experience of suffering can change.

Imagine yourself in 1 year, 5 years, 10 years, and more. Imagine not only different times, but also different roles and situations that can happen in the years to come. What work might you do? Where might you live? Will you have new work, goals, friends, talents, tattoos and travels? The possibilities are limitless. You cannot know what the future holds. Life can and will surprise you. You do not have to fall for suicide’s lies. Maybe, even, your future selves will be glad to be alive. Death is so final, whereas life is full of endless possibilities.

Author: Aprajita Dixit

A girl who does nothing and is still searching for her life's goal

3 thoughts on “Life is full of Possibilities”

  1. I’m sorry but I don’t agree with you in this moment. Suicide is the end, leaving could be better or could be worse and I wouldn’t support another deception. And if life will be better in the future, it’s the same for me, I don’t feel like living a ‘beautiful’ life.
    life for me is finish, it is not important.

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    1. May be life for you is finished.. But what about your parents or your loved ones don’t they deserve to see that you are at least trying to live your life.. Why do you want to reach end so soon. There are so many possibilities.. Suicide only lies, it just shows your inability to handle stress..

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    2. There is this recent incident where father sold his kidney for daughters education and her daughter committed suicide due to her boyfriend. So yes suicide is not the option no matter what, think about parents, think about your loved ones. I totally agree with @aprajita here. Your parents and your loved ones don’t deserve to see you end your life in a flash. Life maybe difficult, you will lose hope, you don’t want to live but then think about other possibilities.

      Recently I met one patient during my recent visit. She is teenage girl…she can’t bend, can’t eat on own, she just can’t do anything on own but still smiling, it is very difficult for her parents as well , they lost hope, they are just worried about her future but still she want to live…..they want to live for her….sometimes there are these moments when you feel you can’t do this anymore but remember those happy moments….try to find that light…..keep trying but don’t quit.

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